Three months after my mom’s funeral, my dad married her sister.I told myself grief makes people do strange things. I repeated it like a mantra, like something learned in therapy or overheard at a support group. I clung to it because the alternative felt unbearable.
I didn’t think anything could hurt more than watching my mom die.
I was wrong.
She fought breast cancer for almost three years. By the end, she barely had the strength to sit up, but she still worried about everyone else. She asked if I’d eaten, if my brother Robert was keeping up with his bills, if Dad remembered his blood pressure medication.
Even while dying, she was parenting.
After we buried her, the house smelled like antiseptic and her lavender lotion. Her coat still hung by the door. Her slippers were half-hidden under the couch. People kept repeating the same hollow comforts.
